Mood: Slightly unhinged
Location: Scattered across the floor of my own expectations
Mental State: Loading… 99% complete (estimated time: infinity)

The Incident

So, today was a thing. I stood in front of a mirror and tried to ‘affirm’ myself. My reflection looked back with such profound skepticism that I had to apologize and leave the room.

I stood there for a long time, just taking it in. The realization that I am an adult who is allegedly in charge of things is the most recurring nightmare I have.

The Spiral

The theme of the week is Ghosting for Beginners.

We live in a world where your refrigerator can tell you if you’re out of milk, but it can’t tell you why your heart feels like a deflated balloon. Technology has solved nothing.

Is it ‘self-care’ if you’re just avoiding the life you built? I spent the weekend ‘recharging’, but the battery is leaking and the charger is frayed.

The Aftermath

The only thing I’m ‘grinding’ is my teeth. But hey, at least I’m doing it with a high level of consistency. That’s a win, right?

I tried to ‘unplug’ and realized my entire identity is stored on a server in Virginia. Without Wi-Fi, I’m just a person who doesn’t know what time it is.

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Mood update: I’ve decided to be at peace with my own destruction. For the next hour, at least.