Mood: Slightly unhinged
Location: Scattered across the floor of my own expectations
Mental State: Loading… 99% complete (estimated time: infinity)

The Incident

So, today was a thing. I went to a networking event and accidentally told a CEO that my passion was ‘uninterrupted silence’. He wrote it down. I think I’m accidentally a thought leader.

I stood there for a long time, just taking it in. The realization that I am an adult who is allegedly in charge of things is the most recurring nightmare I have.

The Spiral

The theme of the week is Social Media Stalking.

They told us to ‘follow our passions’ but neglected to mention that passion doesn’t pay for health insurance. Now I’m just passionate about lying down in a dark room.

I remember when I had hobbies. Now my hobby is ‘scrolling until my thumb hurts’. I’m an athlete of the attention economy, and I’m losing every single game.

The Aftermath

I’m going to sleep for ten hours and wake up even more tired. It’s a physiological miracle that doctors can’t explain but millennials experience daily.

I’m going to watch a documentary about deep-sea creatures because at least they have a good excuse for being under a lot of pressure.

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Mood update: I’ve decided to be at peace with my own destruction. For the next hour, at least.